I remember a time in my life when my only prayer asked God to let me die in my sleep, and every morning I woke up to a new day. At the time I couldn’t understand why God wouldn’t answer my prayer. My days were so dark, the only light visible was emanating from my two children. Every day felt like a new challenge to survive a world that was only inhabited with loveless interactions, a strong disregard for my feelings, and the busyness of selfish ambition, that it seemed to make me invisible to everyone, except when they needed me.

Everyone wanted the benefits of my love without the responsibility of considering my heart, and it began to break me, because I didn’t have the strength, nor the awareness to set healthy boundaries, protect my peace, guard my heart, or fight for me.

I was reduced to an emotional low that felt like an inescapable black hole defined by the lack of affirmation, love, and then shame and guilt followed. Life was sucking the light out of my spirit and the passion out of my soul. Waking up felt like an impossible chore that I abhorred.

I simply wanted to be free…

It was the inspiration from a life awakening dream, and a message from God’s lips to my ears that shared, “I love you…” that showed me why God wouldn’t allow me to die. In that moment I clearly understood God loved me, and I made the conscious decision to live, and to never allow myself to ever get to such a low point emotionally, that leveled my thoughts concerning my life to death!

Making the conscious decision to live was a start to a new beginning, however, I also knew I needed something more than just the will to live.

In my prayer time, I began asking God for help, and in my asking, God revealed a few things to me:

1. I was not alone
2. I was right where I was supposed to be in that moment
3. What I needed was to heal
4. My pain embodied my purpose
5. God had a beautiful plan for my life!

In the midst of the work I was doing to heal, my ministry of healing, My Solace Place, was born. I began to see how every experience I lived thru contained a lesson that became an integral piece of the tapestry that uniquely formed it.  

The more I healed, the more I began to trust and accept God’s unconditional love for me, and as a result, I established Jeremiah 29:11 as the foundation, because it shares…

For I know the plans I have for you,” says the LORD. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.

As I progressed through the various phases of healing, God began to show me more and more of the vision of my divine purpose, and I started the work to help others heal. God gave me the content to create 1-on-1 sessions, and with each new life coaching client and mentee, I saw how a major part of my purpose was being fulfilled in the earth… to God be all the glory!

Once you begin your healing journey, you remain on it for the duration of your life’s journey. As you progress thru the various phases, your awareness is increased, you begin to remember your life’s purpose, and the last phase involves you actively living it. I began to understand that I have been prepared for this moment and for YOU all my life!

If you feel as though you are in the darkest season of your life, the place you’re in does not hold any hope, and you lack the clarity, support, and love needed to move forward, know that you are not alone.

God is always with you!

You are one of the chosen, empowered to fulfill a great purpose, that will reach the generations. The enemy desires nothing more than to kill, steal, and destroy you, so that you don’t fulfill it. The pain you feel serves a purpose, and it will be revealed to you in time. Keep moving forward thru the loneliness, the lack of understanding, and silence knowing that God’s love for you is infinite and unconditional, and as long as you have breath in your body, and you are alive to see a new day, all hope is not lost… you will make it thru!

Don’t give up on you… you have been graced to prosper and you will!

If something in this post resonates with you, and you’re ready to heal, I encourage you to reserve “The Book of Self Love.”