At times the things we desire to see happen for our lives seem to take way too long to manifest! We make our requests known, we do and then we wait, and then we do some more and then we wait some more, and still nothing happens. We go thru a tornado of emotions because we just don’t understand why they’re not happening for us until something unexpected happens that gives us time to reflect on our desires, and turns on the lights!!
Last Friday, I woke up and began my day as I normally do, when all of a sudden I felt a sharp pain on the right side of my abdomen. At first I thought it was just gas so I went to the restroom and the pain just got worse. After a few minutes I realized it wasn’t gas, so I got up, barely able to walk, and I laid down on the closest bed to the bathroom, my daughter’s. As I laid there I began praying as I was trying to self-soothe the pain, and nothing was working. My youngest started waking up and somehow, it had to be the strength God gives mothers, I got up, washed her up, got her dressed, and gave her breakfast. As she was eating, my pain progressed, so I limped backed to the bed. My daughter heard me moaning from the pain, and wanted to get out of her high chair. I got up, and lifted her out of her high chair, and I told her to go get grandma. Somehow I made it back to the bed and at that point, the pain was so intense I was in a ball, bawling myself! The pain was excruciating!
The rest of the day was a blur…I remember being rushed to the hospital, my vitals being taken, getting an ultrasound, and then off to have an emergency surgery! I woke up in a hospital room wondering, “What in the World just Happened to ME?” Saturday morning the doctor came in my room, and explained to me I had a torsion of the right ovary and fallopian tube. She further explained how it happened and a few other things, and although I was listening to what she was saying, the specifics really didn’t matter to me at that point, I was just glad to be relieved from all of that excruciating pain! She told me I would be out of commission for the next 10 days. It’s been four days since my surgery and I’ve been at home recuperating…and thinking about my “unseen blessings.” I’ve been thinking about all of the things I have been focusing my attention on: getting a better job, going back to school, publishing my first book, getting out of debt, saving money, and a few other things, and as crazy as it sounds to the natural mind, even though those things have not manifested for me yet, I have a peace about them all! I’m ok with living my life moment by moment, and day by day, and not worrying about when, how, and if they’re going to happen; instead I am content in knowing I let the universe know I want it to happen and I’m doing my part, and leaving the rest for God to handle.
I didn’t have a “life is too short” awakening as a result of my pain-filled experience Friday because I never thought I was going to die, or even that I was near death. The whole experience just took me to a greater level of peace and thanksgiving for my life now! I don’t have a back-up plan in place at a place of employment housing a short-term disability account to cover my living expenses during this time, or even a significant savings to draw from (yet), but I do have FAITH IN GOD!! Philippians 4:6 says, “Don’t worry about anything, instead pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all He has done.” 1 Thessalonians 5:18 tells us to “Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you who belong to Christ Jesus.” Knowing that, I have no choice but to be at peace and to also be thankful IN this circumstance for all that I do have and the many genuine people God has allowed to cross my path, and especially for those He has allowed to remain in my life!
How has operating from a place of peace affected your life situations? Please share, I would love to know!
Love & Peace to YOU!